Embarrassing Dream
The day before the obituary ran,
I felt in terrible shape,
weeping about one thing and another,
feeling, I suppose, that this made it final,
since I was the one who said it.
I couldn’t drop off to sleep for hours,
and when at last I did, woke up from this dream:
Carolyn was on top of the bed in her nightie,
cheerfully talking to all in the room.
My old friend Pete was one of those present,
and he said: She sure looks alive to me, Peter.
Then her oncologist stuck his head in the door
and said laughing: I read in the paper you died!
Being painfully well-accustomed to blunder,
I thought, This is your all-time worst!
How could you?
You must have hit Send while practicing!
But why were you practicing? Why?
And I woke up writhing in embarrassment,
twisting and turning in the bedclothes.
When I finally began to go back to sleep,
I felt myself falling into the same dream,
but stayed awake till I didn’t.
Thus commenced days of grieving.